Filthie's Mobile Fortress Of Solitude

Filthie's Mobile Fortress Of Solitude
Where Great Intelligence Goes To Be Insulted

Sunday, 18 July 2021

 



I am looking at the wreckage of my former family and all I see is selfishness. Mostly in my daughter, but in my in-laws and myself too. I wanted an old world family. They wanted something else. I don’t understand anything. I can tell folks why I want stuff, and what I intend to with it. All I got from my former family is, “We want it because we want it, who the hell are you to question it?”

Ummmmm… a father…?

Not any more. I don’t understand anything, and nothing makes sense to me in this day and age. Who am I to question people on what they want?

Nobody. Forget I said anything.

I hope you get what you want. Good and hard.

12 comments:

  1. We are brothers. I wanted an old 50's family. One breadwinner, a loving mother, obedient, intelligent children. I was the sole breadwinner alright, my missus was the most driven mother I've ever seen, but not motherly. I think she knew she was undependable and taught the kids to not need her. I missed that memo.

    So, here I sit, alone, recovering from a sickness. but it isn't payment for anything other than committing my life to someone that didn't value it. Not what I wanted, but good and hard nonetheless.

    But the kids are intelligent and decent. Thank God for that!!

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    1. Walk it off, STxAR!!! You have too much work to do to be sick! ;) You are truant on your blog as well!!!

      The wanks and pundits I listen to keep saying that we HAVE to do something about these lunatics that are destroying our families and our communities and nation - or they'll bring the roof down on us.

      I think the roof has already come down, and we just haven't noticed it yet because we are all immersed in our own problems and failures.

      A speedy recovery, STxAR! Thanks for popping in.

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    2. A second on the speedy recovery STxAR. Prayers up, brother!

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    3. Prayers for a speedy recovery.

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  2. My daughter was the perfect daughter up until she decided to become a democrat feminist the last half of her senior year in High School. Now she is a sophomore in college and needs my approval but yet wants to be everything I detest. I thought we were a team. I didn't realize I was spoiling her. I thought discussing things rationally was what you do. We did agree that we had uncompromising differences, a truce of sorts, but one feels so alone. I have found that Four Roses Bourbon and working hard to be good therapy. I suspect there is a whole group of us grumpy not-quite-old guys who will always be alone.

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    1. This is me shooting my face off with no expertis, Bud. But... if you send her to school to take a liberal arts program - you are going to get an unhappy wreck back, and she will do her level best to make you unhappy too.

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    2. I sent her to school to be a nurse at one of the few remaining "Christian Conservative" Universities. A month later it was women's studies. My head exploded so she decided to be a Doctor and double major for two years. Then the Wu-flu hit and grades fell and now I think it is "Cognitive Neuroscience," which probably means social worker. Fortunately it is a BS instead of a BA so perhaps it is marketable. I complained to the University President and he wrote me back very nice letter noting that he had similar problems with his daughter so I guess it is a white girl thing. Heck, I know it is white girl thing. I work at a different Uni so I know first had the BS that goes on...

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  3. Glen, I think in a lot of ways as you point out, the roof has already collapsed and what many people mistake as turning the corner is really the night sky, which indeed has the beauty of stars and moon, but also rain and cold and insects.

    There are perhaps two things we can do. The first is to simply stand back and let things fall apart until people come to their senses. Even in my circle, beople who have much different opinions than I are starting to look at the outcomes that exist now and are stating that this does not seem right. It is not much, but it is a start.

    The second -and you and I have chatted on this before - is to realize that there are still a great many people out there with the sorts of families and values that correspond with the traditions we were raised with. I cannot help but to think that with the ongoing collapse culturally, they are looking for like minded people that can help by being examples and teaching the next generation, even if they are not our own relatives. We need to find a way to connect with these people.

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    1. There is nothing to connect with, over there TB except rage, bitterness and lunacy. I spent 5 years looking for a way to rebuild bridges but I have absolutely nothing to work with.

      I am resigned to letting the night come and will deal with the nocturnal predators and monsters as best I can.

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    2. From what you have expressed Glen, it does seem to be a dead end, other than the banal pleasantries that can be exchanged.

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    3. We passed civil banalities years back, TB. Your velocity may vary, a lot of people live insulated from the realities of what's going on and how bad things are over there. All I can do is pray now - and even that is seen as provocation on the other side of all this.

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  4. I noticed it during the civil rights and Vietnam war protests of the 1960s. The people doing the protesting were being supported by their parents, yet wanted to destroy that society because, well, it needed remodeling.

    Some of it did. I bitterly resented being told that I was going to have to go fight in a war by elected officials that I was too young to elect. I was old enough to serve, but not old enough to vote or do a lot of other things.

    Possibly worse than that was the fact that no one, and I asked a lot of people, could explain just why we were fighting a war in Vietnam. Communism, people said. If we don't fight this war in Vietnam, we'll have to fight it in Florida. Look at a map, genius. Now tell me just how this is going to happen.

    Then there was the Bay of Pigs and the Cuban Missile Crises, and Krushchev blinked, and free love, and turn on, tune in, drop out, and Kesey, and here we all are.

    Headed in the direction of self-indulgence and a government that lies to the constituents on a regular basis, what do you think is going to happen? The 1% of the U.S. population that controls 99% of the wealth wants the hoi polloi to focus on racism, equal rights, and similar things instead of focusing on reality. A crises that doesn't exist, a vaccine that isn't, an election that was rigged so badly that the news is still leaking all over the place.

    All I'm trying to do is to hang on to what little I've got, and it looks as though that's going to be impossible. Why? Because all those trillions of dollars have to come from somewhere, and the payments are more than we the people can afford.

    The solution is to allow public education to keep the population uneducated.

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