Back in high school, in chit house physics you learn about the conundrum that faced the tall foreheads as they struggled to understand light, how it behaved, and why it behaved that way. Otherwise kindly mild mannered academics experimented and almost ended up at each other’s throats over the issue. Leading egg heads were sure light travelled as particles, and their adversaries were sure that it propagated as a wave. There was much hand waving and raging about it until Albert Einstein came along with quantum theory. Guys that were at each other’s throats were suddenly stymied by the new theory - and it’s implications. Then they started to fight about that.
Anger is a lot like light, and has dual contradictory properties. In one form, it consumes the soul, it’s all there is, and consumes everything around it as well. It has its own event horizon where those outside can see nothing inside, and those inside can never see out. Or get out.
From another relative vantage point… it’s nothing, just a singularity, a point in space where nothing works as it should. With enough distance you can see it all quite clearly, and the maelstroms that drive it and sustain it are nothing… just abstract perception with no real meaning in the real world.
This weekend Mom finally let me in to see my dad. He was still delirious from the meds and anaesthetics but was capable of sporadic stretches of lucidness. He’s in tough shape but he’s still with us. Mom is being awful and doesn’t want me involved at all with the family crisis. But my Big Bro is perfect so the two of them will make the best of it, and my input is not required. She’s trying to exclude me from everything to be a **** … and I just don’t care anymore. Stuff like this used to make me seethe… but now?
My place in the family is that of the dog’s servant. I am allowed to go to their house and let him out and pick up after him and take him for a walk.
Peace, I ask the lord to grant it to me frequently. Sounds like you have it. Take care of the dog while you can. I will keep you and your father in my prayers.ReplyDelete
Thank you so much, Anon. Your prayers are worth more than you know.Delete
Comfortable in your own skin. At least, that what it seems like to me. Enjoy the dog. Find the bright spots and dwell there. Like anon, still praying for you and yours.ReplyDelete
It’s wonderful. I have been wanting to drop that baggage for years and just breathe. Now… I think I’ve finally managed it. I can actually laugh at it now.ReplyDelete
do you find that you are in wonderment at your new reactions to the awful?ReplyDelete
freeing, isn't it?
just take dog home with you 'for convenience' and do not bring up the subject. your brother may actually prefer not to have him.
I am, Deb. It’s like a profound epiphany of sorts. I love the pup… but he’s not mine, and the decision isn’t mine either. I’m okay with it, whatever they decide. I don’t need my dad getting bent out of shape either. I have no interest in the family head games or power plays.Delete
That's just it, the head games.ReplyDelete
Some peoples lives are so empty they have to create their own drama to make themselves feel worthwhile. But the emptiness will always be there, they know it and that's what makes them miserable.
You have many talents and always strive for the truth, Glen and that's why you live on an island. There are many like us.
Be there for them, but only if they ask.
Yep - be courteous and upbeat… but stay frosty otherwise.Delete
Einstein came along with "relativity"... others came up with "quantum mechanics". Einstein *hated* QM. He famously said: "God dose not play dice with the universe!" (yeah, even *moar* fighting)ReplyDelete
Quantum Mechanics *proves* that Relativity is false. Relativity *proves* that QM is false. We know they're both wrong, we just don't have anything better yet. (string theory is a bust)
Einstein published the quantum theory of light in 1905.Delete
Fascinating... there are gaping holes in my education. It wasn't quantum "mechanics", which I understand he was "opposed to", but doubtless he influenced it. Thank you for pointing out my error.Delete
Einstein noticed and speculated on a few things that didn't make sense wrt the coupling of light with atoms in a blackbody cavity, which he thought would only make sense if the emission/absorption was directional. He also posited absorption in discrete chunks as a possible explanation of the photoelectric effect. (There are actually other semiclassical explanations.)Delete
But his problem (and that of just about any physicist which thinks things through) with where quantum mechanics was going had to do with the shoehorning of an anti-realist philosophy into the very foundation of the thing by Neil's Bohr and his acolytes in the 1920s. For all it's successes (some of which are real, some of which are illusory), quantum physics as formulated was built to deliberately deny and frustrate any attempt to get at a model of *what nature is doing* to produce the outcomes we "measure". It was in part a rebellion against the comprehensibility and rationality of nature, and it has blighted our understanding ever since. To Bohr, it was illegitimate to attempt any model of what nature is, and what nature does. It was only permissible to model (in situationally varying ways) what we might measure. To the logical positivists, nature is a disconnected series of sensory impressions, *nothing more*. And any attempt at a unified coherent picture of the world is to be suppressed.
The logical positivists supposedly "won" their debates in the Solvay conference of 1927. Einstein, Schrodinger, de Broglie and others supposedly "lost". Insofar as you can call derailing mankinds quest for actual understanding "winning".
I *really* don't do "servitude" well. But if I had to, I could do worse than to serve a dog. Much more appealing to me than service to most men.ReplyDelete
That's the thing...men don't require servitude - tyrants do.Delete
This is actually a very profound statement about being centered, rising above the "throwness" to petty fighting, finding peace, duty, and clarity of mind. I'm actually awed by your testimony... And... projecting myself there...ReplyDelete
My comments were only about me. I really am an asshole. Sorry about that.
Sorry to read that bout you and mom.ReplyDelete
My mother chose my ex over myself and her grandson.
I got custody of my kid when he was 4.
Havent heard from her in 6 plus years.
Her choice. Oh well.
That’s right. It is what it is. Once you master the art of detachment… life becomes easier…Delete
Sorry to hear about Dad. Falls are the worst. Knocks all sorts of stuff loose. Praying for the best.ReplyDelete
Mr. Filthie- please, pal- just steal the dog. Lie about It running away. I'm sure the dog will forgive you.ReplyDelete
Stupid stuff like that is how I get involved with stupid fights with them Tex. Pop is in rough shape and will need to see his buddy when he gets home. Mom would go nuts, Big Bro will go nuts... and that isn't good for anyone... they are in charge of this crisis/soap opera... and I am already more involved with it than I want to be. At this point it is all about them, and all I am is a mere prop... and that's good enough.Delete
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