Filthie's Mobile Fortress Of Solitude

Filthie's Mobile Fortress Of Solitude
Where Great Intelligence Goes To Be Insulted

Friday, 14 October 2022

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How many plots and schemes were hatched in here? It’s former occupant came out here to unwind, decouple and refresh his soul with household repairs, reno projects, and equipment maintenance. The spit-shined machines patiently await their master in sunlit silence.

Each day after our walk, I open up my father’s Reclusium so his little dog can come in and smell around and make sure his master isn’t hiding in here, and that he won’t be home today. It always smells like spring in here - like gasoline and grass clippings. Each day the little dog leaves, dejected and morose.

Mom just called and told me she’s gonna put little Sammy down. A few weeks back a miracle occurred. Mom was pushing my buttons and trying to spin me up the way she always has. She could push my buttons, and adrenaline and nitro would flood my nervous system - and I’d be on my way to the moon, gibbering and cursing with rage all the way. She loved it. But.. this time, the engines flamed out, and I found myself serenely lounging on my launching pad. All the emotions are still there… but it’s like they’re in another room… and easily ignored if wish. It was like an epiphany: I could almost see the  LAUNCH FAILURE signs flashing in my psyche.

My own Reclusium calls. It smells like feet, farts, and sawdust. It promises peace and solace from a world that no longer  owns me. I will miss little Sammy. He will fall from this world, thinking his master deserted him, and that he was replaced by some kind of homonculus  - me. I hope he can forgive me for not getting attached to him, or letting my heart bond to his.

I control nothing in this world. Hopefully I’ll do better in the next.

29 comments:

  1. Sad.............

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  2. Sorry about the dog. Sure he would be good for someone. As to control, that is an illusion at best. If you are married or have children or interact with children at all you will come to peace about how much of an illusion it really is.

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  3. well, one thing my mom did was keep my dad's dog. she loved the little furry bastard until he passed in his sleep 7-8 years after dad did.
    where as before, the little piss ant of a dog was always by dad.
    afterwards he was just a close to mom. damn dog even sat/ stayed besides her on the couch.

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  4. Take the dog home with you, Filthie. If you don't you will feel guilty and think about it until you die. How can you let this happen?

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    1. THIS! Absolutely. To quote a great world leader, "Come On, Man!" Don't let this dog die. Even if you have to take him, put him up for adoption right away. Don't just let him go. This seems so out of character for you.

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  5. find out which vet she will use and ask him privately to spare sammy to you without telling her
    your dad is getting no say in this?
    it's his dog

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  6. This is where you need to draw a line and grow a pair. Allowing a dog to be put down because you have a hard bark is bullshit. I enjoy reading your blog and can relate to a lot of what you throw down...but not on this. I encourage you to reconsider, have a friend take the dog and then bring it back into your fold when the waters have calmed. Just sayin brother...

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  7. No kindness done to dogs - especially grieving dogs - goes unnoticed by the mover of Goodness.

    Keep hope - there are better things than this.

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  8. Killing a dog because it's "inconvenient" is the same as aborting a fetus.
    WTF is wrong with you? Take the damn dog and tell your psychobitch relatives to GFTS

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  9. Tewshooz called it. You're a dog guy, your conscience will come out from under numb and beat you with regret. Think of it like an old fashion arranged wedding, at first there's respect, later comes love.
    Tree Mike

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  10. Glen, a smite bit disappointed. You are attached to the dog already or you wouldn't have mentioned him on your blog and having ambivalent feelings. Take the dog, your sanity, your Grace in front of your Maker when you are standing for the Judgement. You will hate yourself if the evil mother has her way. The dog is an innocent in this.

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  11. Tell me how to get ahold of you. I will pay for the flight to Utah and return the dog when the time is right. I didn't find an email on the blog.

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  12. What Cederq said goes, but place the dog with a third party since you can't keep him yourself due to the family. Since the little rascals are escape artists, there's plausible deniability. You'll feel better knowing you did the right thing.

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  13. Holy cow. Ease up on the guy, already. I’m not going to tell him to get the dog because I myself wouldn’t be willing to feed him and care for him- only to get emotionally attached and ultimately have to part with that dog someday soon. Cut the guy some slack. We’re not walking in his shoes; we’re only reading his blog.

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    1. God forbid you should get emotionally attached! How about you cut the little dog a little slack?

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  14. To this observer, it sounds like the maternal unit is giving you carte blanche to put her own ass down whensoever she becometh to burdensome a burden, precedent being set forth and all.

    Make sure you explain it to her as you pull the plug.

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    1. I couldn't have said it better!
      Ohio Guy

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  15. I can't imagine the mindset that would allow a wife to kill her husband's dog while he's recuperating.

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    1. Heh, you should see my family......................

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  16. Sir, with all due respect and the understanding from similar experience:
    I believe there are some folks you need to immediately cut out of your life permanently...and the dog ain't one of them.
    Rip the band-aid off NOW! It doesn't get easier.

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  17. Gravy sakes. I am so far behind the times... I must be a troglodyte. I trust your judgement Glenn. You are there, and you have the experience of a half century plus with this group of humans you are related to. Maybe I'm totally wrong, but as much as I love dogs and horses, if I don't own it, it's not my decision. And I think that may be where the rub is. I don't anthropomorphize animals. I've had too many go down.... either to the meat locker, the zooming farm truck, animal attacks, or just plain bad luck.

    When I was a kid, when an animal suffered a bad wound, we would put it down. I've done a lot of that in my past. Part of the life on a farm. And as close as I was to my dogs, they were mercifully offed if they were beyond hope and I cried my heart out after wards. Our pet graveyard was under the Arizona pine trees on the west side of the garden. I visited them often. I love animals, but they aren't people, no matter how much I wish they were.

    Again, I trust your judgement, you aren't a dipstick by any stretch. Depending on the severity of the war, we have to pick our battles.

    How is the skinning of the new bird coming along??

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  18. The dog belongs to his father, not his mother. Tell her to FO and eat shiete. Tell her your father told you to keep the dog. How can she prove otherwise. It will be a civil matter. You going to kill Mort if she tells you to? If you don't have the stones to handle this, what makes you think you can handle SHTF when Turdboi's goons come to take you to a "safe place"? For 70+ years I have kept my nose in my lane. Guess I broke my own rule. You love your Mom but you don't seem to respect her. Why bend to her sad self? Get hard and don't wimp out to her.

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  19. Have to agree with other commenters. The dog is not a object to be thrown in the trash because of inconvenience. Find a home for him or keep him.

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  20. Well, that brings back memories. My mother had my cat euthanized when I was young because he was inconvenient to her. 50-odd years later, it still pisses me off, and I wouldn't trust her with any animal's life. Also a friend of my wife, whose mother died and euthanized both of her perfectly healthy Boston Terriers. To inconvenient to even ask his friends if anyone would have an interest in them. The tranny blogger Erin-something-or-other that put down his dog after he stuck his face in the dog's face while it was asleep, surprised it and got a bite for being a dumbass. Put down the dog, to inconvenient to take responsibility for being an idiot. Common thread being all these people were inconvenienced, and had no problem killing something for their personal comfort. No empathy. Hadn't thought from your writing you would be in that camp. At least give the dog a chance for adoption at a shelter. Be better than your mother. It's not that work to do to go to the shelter to submit as an owner surrender or stray surrender, both the dog and some unknown person could end up happier, you'd be preventing a wrong, and if it's of any benefit, you'd have a bit of payback for putting up with years of shit. For what it's worth, I've done that myself with a "neighbor's" dog that they didn't feed or provide care for, and let it roam when they went on vacation. Came on my property, promptly took it to the shelter where they'd have to pay a fee to reclaim him. They didn't, and in my case, I legally adopted him, complete with receipt. Little dogs are popular for shelter adoptions; please give him a chance.

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  21. Thank you ALL - those of you with harsh words as well - your words reflect well on your hearts. It makes me glad that there are men on the other side of the computer screen that take the time to read and comment.

    On this side of the screen things are … complicated. I have offered to take the dog. Big Bro has as well. In my family, I am just a prop or an NPC character that will not be heard or heeded. Unlike me, Big Bro is perfect just like mom is…so it is still possible he’ll talk sense into her and Sam will live with him instead…and that’s good too. My only role in this is to be as kind and supportive as I can. I don’t think I can do that if I kick down the door and kidnap the family dawg while my dad lies in great pain and befuddlement at the hospital.

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  22. i still do not ubderstand the ignoring of your dad
    when he goes home [unless it's 'inconvenient' to your birth parent] he will be looking for dog
    p s- dogs are allowed to visit the nursing home
    dog's presence may enhance your dad's healing

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    1. Pop is in the hospital in Covid lockdown Deb. Visitors are not allowed. Mom has Covid now (of course). When Pop gets out, he will almost certainly be an invalid. We’re talking wheelchairs and ramps and all the rest. Pop is semi lucid and has good and bad days. On bad days, he gets abusive and takes it out on mom. I will see dad as soon as possible.

      There’s other things going on too…that’s only some of it.

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  24. I feel ya man. In many ways close enough to my situation that I know advice or even observations from others is pointless and useless. Gotta do what ya gotta do in the situation. I am sure you have done all that ya can and the best you can as well.

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